First Best

As of late, my toddler has had an intense fondness for spending time with his daddy. If daddy is home, mommy is second best. I do my best to try to include myself in their activities. Instead, my son quickly shuns me by pushing me away, or shouting, “No, No, Mommy!”. To say this rejection…

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Abandoning My Past

For a long time I had feelings of disdain toward my earthly father. He caused me much pain and hardship over the course of my life. I grew up with an ever increasing void in my heart due to certain choices he made. Although l would like to point fingers and say he abandoned me,…

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Surrendering My Control

Due to circumstances throughout my childhood, I suffered through years of feeling broken and damaged. Because of this, I was very vulnerable to more pain. I didn’t much care for the feeling of helplessness caused by the magnitude of my external circumstances. So, I decided when I turned 18 years old that no one would…

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Bursting at the Seams

Imagine a single drawer filing cabinet for organizing and storing your mail. Do you think one drawer could fit it all? I snicker when I think about my student loan bills alone. [Although, it’s really not that funny at all.] I am willing to conclude that even those wouldn’t fit into a single drawer. When…

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New Year, Renewed Me!

When I think of ringing in the new year, my first thoughts focus on the phrase “New Year, New Me!”. This lead me to ponder, ‘What it is that I would like to be new with me?’. Outwardly speaking, a new hair style and color. Getting fit with a structured exercise regime. Eating healthier and…

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