First Best

As of late, my toddler has had an intense fondness for spending time with his daddy. If daddy is home, mommy is second best. I do my best to try to include myself in their activities. Instead, my son quickly shuns me by pushing me away, or shouting, “No, No, Mommy!”. To say this rejection…

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Abandoning My Past

For a long time I had feelings of disdain toward my earthly father. He caused me much pain and hardship over the course of my life. I grew up with an ever increasing void in my heart due to certain choices he made. Although l would like to point fingers and say he abandoned me,…

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Surrendering My Control

Due to circumstances throughout my childhood, I suffered through years of feeling broken and damaged. Because of this, I was very vulnerable to more pain. I didn’t much care for the feeling of helplessness caused by the magnitude of my external circumstances. So, I decided when I turned 18 years old that no one would…

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Uncharted Territory

I’ve had to face some big decisions in life. Decisions that would bring about change. These changes have taken me to a place not yet explored- uncharted territory. When confronted with said “changes”, I’m left to ponder, “Am I making the right decision?”. As a late teen, I was faced with the decision of college.…

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Pointing Fingers

Why is it that the people I’m closest with are the ones I hurt the most? I seem to have this tendency of becoming frustrated very easily. I’ll point fingers at so-and-so. I’ll accuse, I’ll blame, I’ll criticize. Out of frustration, I can become angry, bitter, and even speak ill about those whom I love.…

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